Thursday, May 17, 2012
Andrew has two, maybe four green thumbs. Man can plant anything in the ground. I, on the other hand, only enjoy the part of gardening when the produce is delivered to me for washing, cutting and putting up. So this whole system really works for our family. I can pretend that I had some part in the process and most importantly, stage a photo shoot for our bounty.
Except that Andrew was taking the pictures and wasn't paying enough attention to me (needy? maybe) so I jumped in the frames in a bid to steal the show from the vegetables.
If I ever become famous, I totally bet that that last picture will come back to haunt me on the cover of People when they peg me for a crazy long before my name hit the glittery lights.
Posted by Valerie at 10:10 AM
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
I've been married for almost 5 months, stayed at the same job for 2 years, lived in Mt. Sidney for almost 2.5 years, Kingdom of Traiylor for 1.8 years, stopped chewing my fingers for 3 months and have never completed Jillian Michael's 30 day shred.
I wonder when the newness of this all will fade away? I feel like I have been constantly turning over some new leaf in my life since college--here for a year or two, somewhere new for the next two years.
And here I am now, in the place that I will more than likely die in, unless I get into some freak accident and die while I am zip lining in South America. For me, this is a new experience. To know that I am here, on this farm, until I die, is both incredibly comforting and also a little weird.
Will I ever get used to the smell of turkey shit when they spread it in the fields beside us? I hope to God no because I want to know if I am breathing in that stank so I can hold my breath. Will talking about hay, and all the different forms of hay that there can be in this world (omgsomany), ever get old? I can already answer this one: yes, it does. Will Andrew ever fix the front door? The odds are not in my favor.
I do know that as much as I hate the smell of turkey shit and drivers that go 20 mph on a one lane road, I cannot imagine myself anywhere else.
There once was a time in my life where I was almost 99% sure that I would be living in New York City. I had a boyfriend there, dreams of going after dreams, and a thirst for "life". I used to take the China Town bus from Richmond to the city and imagine myself living in a tiny apartment, in the buzz of it all, right there.
As quickly as I pieced together what my life would look like in NYC, I was dumped and pathetically got back on the China Town bus to Richmond, crying the entire way home. Can I paint you a more depressing picture? Oh wait, I can. The air conditioning on the bus went out on the way home. In the rain. On a bus packed full of people that didn't take too kindly to bathing. OH, and this little nugget just came back into my brain: they played one of those horrendous Madea movies the entire way back.
It took me a very long time to get over the experience--not the bus ride, although that was icing on the broken-hearted cake, but the build up of imagining your life with someone, somewhere, and watching it unravel in front of your eyes.
Some of the students at school connect with me and quite often seek my advice. I'd like to tell myself it is because of my infinite wisdom, but I think it is because I look like their older sister rather than someone on staff. And they know I won't nark on them. And I like to listen, or at least practice the act of listening. I hear myself tell them that things all work out in the end--there is always a plan behind it all. They look back at me, usually rolling their eyes, as I spout out the one thing that teenagers HATE to hear: "Everything happens for a reason." (God, didn't you fricken' hate it when adults said that to you)
And look at me now. Could I even imagine living in New York City? Hell no. If I could imagine my worst nightmare it would probably be living in any city.
I am here. Where I am supposed to be, and I feel that deep down in my soul, turkey shit and all.